Pretty sure I've dropped a pound or two. Thts like 1% of what I want to lose. :/ But at least its better than nothing. I've been skipping lunch, but I should probably have coffee or something for breakfast. I need to start smoking again too. I know its such a gross habit, but I've been craving one horribly. Havent smoked in a week, and its making me eat more. Which is an even grosser habit. So I'll choose the lesser of two evils. Plus, smoking makes me eat a lot less. And drink more water.
The other day we were doing a crossword puzzle in Physical Science (its like a combination of chemistry and physics), and all the stuff had to do with food. Stuff like proteins, carbohydrates, saturated, ect. One of the answers was fat. I felt like saying fat is never the answer, but I bit my tongue. And it seemed like when our teacher said the word 'fat' everyone thought of me. I hate tht word. I hate writing it, saying it, everything. It feels like if I ever say it, then it just draws attention to the fact tht I am fat. And then everybody just starts thinking about how fat and disgusting I am. But anyways, back to the reason I mentioned the crossword in the first place. I asked my teacher 'Why does all of this have to do with food?' Then she told me tht its because all food really is is chemicals. Its just all the chemicals together tht do different things to your body. But its seems to me like they all do the same thing, which is make me fat. But! Just another motive for me to stay away from it! :)
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